Letters to Fides – FEAR – When the World is About to Devour Us.
by Rita Davidson
Many of us take our faith for granted. We say our daily prayers and say our rosaries and go to Mass and confession. It becomes so common we don’t think about it.
But there are some of us that are not so lucky. When just being Catholic is a struggle. So many of us have different stories and different crosses. Here is a Catholic that I have been helping for a few months. I’ve changed the name to protect them. “Fides’ is the latin word for faith. And I pray this for them. I’m sharing some of their struggles with you in hopes it will help others. This is the latest installment, I may share more as time goes on.
“I am so scared Rita. “
“I cant tell you how lost i felt. I cried and just prayed. Like nobody cares. I have no home to go to. Nobody to call back in *** to say I got here safe. NO close friends at all. It was just terrible. I really hate this life and always have. I dont know where I belong –“
“I started wondering how did I get to be the age I am with no friends–no one interested in me, nothing to Hold on to? I feel invisible in this world. Why do some of us sensitive ones suffer so bad? And are alone so much?”
I hope you read that article I wrote on Depression ? I think you did
And perhaps my article on ‘Fear’
When your scared “Fides” , and your alone. Think of Our Lord. Think of how scared He was in the garden. As He prayed and knew what was to come, think of the fright He had.
The sweat of blood that came from His pores because He was so afraid to face His own death. Our Lord knows how you suffer, He knows your pain. He too has been there.
When you are scared and alone you must unite yourself to Him alone. GO to Him in prayer and tell Him all that is on your mind. He can be your friend in this world. This world that you are all alone in; Jesus is always there waiting to be your friend. The problem is He is waiting for us to turn to Him. He wants to give us comfort and graces.
But often fear clouds our mind and keeps us not thinking about God. God needs to become a habit. Like a natural turning to Him when all is confusing. And that only comes with time.
There is no greater teacher than going to God when you are at your worst. When your life seems so alone and so dark. When all hell seems bent on devouring you. This is when you must throw yourself at the foot of the Cross. I tend to like to be at the foot of Gethsemane. It is there I can most connect with Our Lord. There as he talks to His father in heaven and tells Him of his sorrows and fright. It is there I see myself kneeling behind Him. Just listening to Him. Just feeling my own pain, and just imagining reaching out to touch the Hem of His garment. Just that one touch, like the woman in the bible with an issuing of blood, that touched Him. I can see how just that one touch could heal me too. It is there I get ‘hope’.
Often, this is the only place you can go when your life seems so alone.
Suffering is never for nothing. The pain we feel in our soul never goes unseen. God sees all, and is using this pain to mold you. He is using this pain to make you become the soul worthy of Him.
It is not easy. Being the clay in the potters hands is never easy. But that is part of what God has called each of us too. This is His will for us.
Just one reading of hell, makes one understand the horror of hell and how it is something even God wants us to avoid.
I pray this brings you some peace today “Fides”, and I pray you take care of yourself and get good sleep and know that all things will be well again.
God bless you,
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Rita is a Catholic wife and mother of seven children. She reverted back to the faith when her oldest was making her First Communion. By then, she had completed degrees in Hairdressing and Make up artistry. She went on to receive a degree in Natural Health and another degree in Art. At age 26, Rita suffered a minor stroke. With no lasting effects, this dramatically changed her outlook on life. In 1996, Rita began ‘Little Flowers Family Apostolates’ to reach out to other families with her new found faith, by creating unique Catholic books and resources.. In 1999, she wrote the bestselling, ‘Immodesty; Satan’s Virtue’. She was editor of ‘The Catholic Health Letter’ for 7 years. She has been a homeschooling mom for 20+ years, and has written for various magazines. She is honored that families have trusted her with their questions, needs and concerns over the years. She continues to write and reach out to Catholic families with her husband, Mark and their 4 boys through